24. Golden Screams

You say one thing and mean another.
That you would be there, make time.
Fading slowly into the night.
My breath is weak.

You taught me how to trust again.
Those lessons went to waste.
You broke me, and scattered the pieces to the wind.
Don't do it again. Please.

I know you're busy, but that doesn't mean we can't talk.
I'm buried under work.
These bruises on both of us are real.
Is this just a game to you?

The only thing certain in this life,
is change.
It's not amazing, it's unpredictable.
I just want to be reassured by you again.

Before I sing the final song.
Or dance the final dance.
Just know that I am always here for you.
But you pass that on.

Goodbye will be bearing his ugly head soon.
Maybe it should be sooner.
I would like that, I can't imagine it though.
I love all of you.

Nobody knows the reasons in my heart.
The way you act, I still take it.
I'll be gone by then.
Nobody knows but me.

I don't want to undermine you.
Maybe this is a final message, I can't tell the future.
I only want you to be happy.
And if that means I'm dead, then I'll do it.

I've held this emotion in for as long as I can.
It's over, you know my name now.
How could you say that?
What you said all those years ago.

It wasn't long, but the heart ages quickly.
I'm lost in the mist.
Your mist.
I'll not lie.

Lying in the dark, in the witching hour.
Screaming at the top of my voice.
But silently, so you cannot hear me.
Can you?

Goodbye my Love


*Curtain Falls*