GoneYou're gone now, but I will always love you.You're around all the time.Even though you're gone.Everyone misses you.I miss you, and I can't change that.You're gone.Fallen through a black hole.Don't know where you've gone to.Seeing your eyes in the sky.Knowing that you're there.For all thse hours that you're not here.I love you.Even though you're gone.I'll wake up every morning and think of you.I'll never forget you.I'm gone with you.
DarknessDarkness swallows you.Darkness hides you.Darkness guides you.Darkness loves you.It can be threatening.It can be exciting.But it is unpredictable.Just like you.Darkness can be inviting.So can you.Darknesscan be hateful.So can you.You are my world.You are the light of darkness.You are the wilderness.I need you with me...Darkness.
BuriedBuried beneath the smothering pressure of depression.Not knowing how to come up.But it gives me this impression.That things will never pick up.Lingering tears of madness.I cry and cry, getting no where.Smothered in pain and badness.Wondering how I even got there.You're my reason for living.If there was no you, there would be no me.Finding my feet, the sensation of burying.Forever thinking of you and me.Buried in my self pity.I know I'm not perfect.But I know I need you.I am buried, waiting for you.
WastedI am wasted.I am wasting.Wasting on you.Watching my life roll away.Always waiting for you, wasting away.Never seeing you.Not today anyway.Wasting on you.Seeing your face in the light.Wasting my sight.Missing you like crazy.Slitting my wrists to deal with the pain.When you're gone, I waste.Which is all the time.Having my heart ripped out.Wasting on You.
HopeSeeing the silver thread of hopeKnowing that they're there to lean onThe comfort that your friends are thereKnowing that there is hopeBut sometimes, hope seems invisibleAlways so close, yet so farNever seeing the lightAlways suicidial, feelings of dreadAnorexia is hope, she is beautifulShe is the light of happinessShe is the carrier of successPeople don't understand herHope is never thereHope steals happinessStealthily through the nightHope is too rare
FeelingsFeelings are all around usIn our heads and in our heartsWe experience them everydayBad or Sad, we will feel itThe most horrible one of all is loveYou can feel it towards anyoneBut the most painful is when it is hurtful loveWhen it hurts to love someoneYou can't help itOne day you hate themOne day you love themYou want to be held by themI miss my old lifeBefore it was dedicated to youI miss meAnd I miss you
PromisesI cling to your promises.But I'm always let down.Never know what's gonna happen next.I will remain waiting.You promise something small.I wait for a lifetime.Always watching for the next sign.You bring pain when you come.My world is the pain inside me.Promise after promise.Breaking of hearts.Thinking of death.Whatever happens next.Whatever you let me down on.I will always love you.No matter what Promises
I love youI can never ever tell you this.For one youd never believe me.Im scared of losing you.Youve been so good to me.I cant even talk to you properly.I want to see you all the time.Im scared of telling you this.Youre just one person.Youre not the whole world.You need to know that you cant control my life.Leave me alone and I will come to YOU.You dont even know Im witting this now.Youve really got no idea how much you mean to me.If you died tomorrow, Id go to pieces.I just dont work without you.This is the letter that I never wrote you.I love you.
PoisonYou are poison.You are antidote.You are the one.You dont even know.She is the sky.She is me.She is the wind.She is with you.He looks out for you.You push him away.He doesnt understand.Youre scared of losing him.I love him.Does he love me?No he doesnt.He is poison.He is the antidote.***